the ebb and flow

My husband is a carhartt wearing man.  He comes home from work dirty and Beckett and him make up 90% of the weekly laundry.   Contrary to our normal routine, I just dropped off $40 worth of drycleaning during my lunch break.  I can count on two hands the total amount of money we have spent at the drycleaners in the last twelve months.  We don’t dryclean.

Why all the drycleaning?

August has been a heck of a month for us.  In a thirteen-day window – we had two weddings, a funeral and a birthday party.  The first wedding was a 11-hour drive away in Montana and Beckett was the flower girl.  The second wedding was a 7-hour drive away on the Oregon coast and Jacob officiated for our best friend.  The birthday party was for Princess Beckett and squeezed into an evening weeknight because of our crazy schedule.  And, the funeral was for Jacob’s Grandma.  The suit, the ties and the dress shirts have seen more wear in August than in all the years since they were purchased.

It’s really been an up and down roller coaster of emotions.  Jacob’s grandma lost her long battle with cancer and left behind five children, a dozen grandchildren and a handful of great grandchildren.  She was an undeniable character who was loved immensely by her family and friends and will be missed with an aching hole in our hearts.

Jacob was one of her oldest grandsons and had the privilege of witnessing the beautiful, one-of-a-kind marriage of his grandma Connie and grandpa John before his death when Jacob was twelve.  Jacob spent days thinking about what to say at the funeral and even if he should speak at all.  He decided he wanted to talk about celebrating life – as this little one grows in my belly, as his grandma joins her true love in heaven and, most importantly, the indelible mark that loved ones leave on our hearts forever – long after they are gone.

Below is the quote that he chose to finish his speech with.  The middle portion is painted on the baby’s wall as a reminder of what we are and what we can be.  These are wonderful words from our favorite bear.

“If ever there is tomorrow when we’re not together, there is something you must always remember. You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. But the most important thing is, even if we’re apart, keep me in your heart: I’ll stay there forever.”

~Winnie the Pooh

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9 Responses to the ebb and flow

  1. Jenny says:

    Simply beautiful. Well said.

  2. Cathi Kosanovic says:

    made me cry…

  3. Ginger says:

    Oh Kate. What an emotional rollercoaster you guys must have been on. I’m so sorry for your loss.

  4. ilibrarianblog says:

    Celebrations of life ending, life beginning, and love–somehow these all happen at once. You are so strong to be fully there and so wise. Beautiful.

  5. Eileen says:

    Jacob finishing at the funeral was perfect fit with the grand kids.
    I still cry when I read it.

    Thank you Jacob Love Aunt Eileen

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